We went to a good friend’s birthday recently and seeing all the lovely people from what seems like a past life was great. It was also difficult for me to see people who knew me vaguely in a previous form, it felt awkward in an open environment. This is probably because I am aware that an appreciation of the stark contrast between life now and life before my accident has been formulated. I think it feels awkward for me because of a self-consciousness brought about when the reality of my physical condition and capabilities is “brought home”. Sometimes when meeting people for the first time who have no knowledge of me before my accident, and therefore are not inadvertently comparing my present image/form to that of before, I feel more comfortable because I imagine they see a physically compromised individual with distinct cognitive ability rather than a previously blooming individual with a comparative dearth of physical ability.
Anyway, there is my introverted and egotistically indulged reflection on my emotions. I think I still enjoyed the evening.